
I must say that today has been much better. We even had a picnic lunch, in the living room and it was a happy one!
Thank you all of you who care so much and send your love and support through your comments, it really meant a lot to see you reach out, like a big virtual hug.
Last night was horrible. Both kids woke up continually till 1:45am when I brought Ethan in with us and Dave got Kaitlyn at 2:10. She kept waking herself up with
coughing and we tried to get some
meds into her so she could sleep. Of course it was a huge battle and she spit and spewed and flailed and screamed, she did settle though and nursed for comfort through the rest of the night. Back and forth, and back and forth....needless to say we weren't up till 10:00am. Which was a good thing because we were all rested and much happier today. I did make coffee, yea, off to a great start! My nerves were under wraps and the sun was shining, I hadn't made plans...getting smarter!

Dave came home for lunch as a nice surprise for the kids and then the
internet went down and I ended up on the phone with tech support for an hour figuring out what had gone wrong.
Needless to say it is running again, but I felt strangely
disconnected from my
cyber world for a few minutes.Whew!
We then went out and ran errands...sans proper naps!(Ethan
snuck in 15
mins during lunch) I had booked a tanning
appointment and dropped the kids off at my parents so I could have those few
blissful moments to
myself.
Ahh, total relaxation, no interruptions...for 12 minutes, they were an amazing 12 minutes! I emerged rested and energized, it is amazing what a few minutes can do for a zonked mommy. Here are some pics in my parents front yard of Kaitlyn petting a
caterpillar. I freak out when I see a bug, become somewhat
paralyzed and screech, I am such a girl. Well, Kaitlyn has seen me do this and started to cry when she came across a bug the other day. I realized I had better suck it up because the last thing we need is a
woosy girl. So I have been trying to teach her a little about bugs and leaving the rest of it to those who actually like them. She has come around to them rather quickly and even likes to pet fuzzy ones.



Phil and Em came home with with us and I was able to get some cleaning done,
yee-ha, huge step up from yesterday! And we spent the rest of the afternoon with Dora. I think she has managed to make it into almost all of our photos one way or another. This evening we went out to Home Depot to pick up a new BBQ, yee-ha, thank you Grandma and Papa A. The pics of that adventure are in the slideshow below this post. The last pic
was taken just before the kids went to sleep tonight. Kaitlyn set all the toys on
the couch so they could all watch an episode of Dora together.
Awww, hope tonight is better. As I was putting them in their beds, brushing the hair off their little foreheads and kissing their little cheeks it brought tears to my eyes. This is such a
privilege to raise these little ones and I just pray that I can be a better mother, more patient and not be snappy and cranky, they don't deserve to be around that. Neither does Dave so I better send up some prayers in the wife departement as well. I know they don't mean to get on my nerves, they just need me, I am their mommy! Sob, sniff....I just love them so much and wish I could show it all the time!